Goodbye My lover

Today is the saddest day of my life, most of the daily newspaper have the pictures of Raja Nazrin and his fiancee. And she was damn pretty. I used to have a huge crush on Nazrin(as I fondly called him). It started when I was 14 years old. I first saw him when Raja Azlan Shah was 'ditabalkan' as our King. It was on 1 documentary aired by TV3 about the new king and there he was. Looking ever so dashing and he has a major advantage-he is smart. Harvard graduate ok. So from that moment on, he was my knight in shining amour. I was so crazy about him. I could not talk about anything else but him.

I even know his full name, then not now. Now I can't even seem to remember my new i/c number without writing it down :) Suddenly Perak history was the most fascinating history in the Malaysia. I took the trouble to find anything about him. I even wrote a letter to him ok, that's how deep my feeling for him.

Once, my aunt met him for business thingy, and I found out about this. I literally forced my aunt to tell me anything everything about him. How was he like? (very gentleman and nice guy). What drink he took?(Coke-now you know why i drink coke). Everything, until my aunt gave up and refused to tell me anything. I used to berangan that 1 day somehow our path will cross and we will fall madly in love. I even berangan that I will be known as "Raja Permaisuri Perak" kihkihkih.

I had that feeling throughtout my teenage years. Unfortunately our path never crossed when we was still single so not chance there for my "Raja Permaisuri Perak' to become reality. But I met him twice when I was a married woman!!!! It's like Allah is telling me, you are not meant for him. Sedih tau. My hope was dashed this morning(as if there was any to begin with, but I'm happy for him-cliche tak??)

So, goodbye my lover and Zara please take good care of him.